November 2010
1 post
i enjoy cooking really. i don’t do it so often though as i then am required to clean the kitchen up after myself. today i made choc fudge brownies. they are quite tasty. i’m pleased with the result.
i’m quite fond of adam lambert at the moment. he’s rather attractive i guess.
i’m really really tired of being sick. i’ve been ailing for the past month and a...
March 2010
1 post
i think everyone should study economics! or at...
December 2009
1 post
shopping. oh the joys of shopping, why exactly shopping can be found fun, joyful or entertaining is apparently something that is only know to women. a man who properly understands shopping as the wonderful activity it is, seems to be rather rare. is it all the colours? indeed who can resist the bright swirls of red, blue, yellow, green? the array of hues can be quite hypnotising! perhaps it is the...
October 2009
1 post
i came up to my room just now after having watched the boy in the striped pyjamas downstairs.the boys were already upstairs in bed i came as usual to my room -
what i found:
- the boys had gone through my diary (WHICH IS PRIVATE) and used MY nailpolish to desecrate it
- they tipped all my clean clothes out of the basket onto the floor
- they used half of my small stockpile of fireworks (which...
August 2009
12 posts
i screwed up. my world is maintained by the things that i choose to tell and withhold from certain people, and now i screwed up and it is not the first time and daresay i’ll live through it but i went and told my father some of the things that i always want to say but never actually do.
usually when he says stupid things like ”Do you love your pa?” or “we have a good...
so here i am sitting on a chair that rocks backwards which can be both good and bad depending on whether or not you want to sit or lie down because it can be difficult to sit comfortably without it going backwards but i have figured a good way to sit where my legs are on the ground in the most unladylike manner either side of the chair and the part where my legs are supposed to be were i lying...
well they didn’t seem too surprised when i spoke so i guess i wasn’t forgetten
in a second i’m going to speak just to see if my parents remember that they are on a skype call with me while they are sorting out their finances
the other day i started watching reaper because it...
i know it is kind of late considering that i want to get up around 7 but i just finished watching a film with dominique and karine. the film we watched was Revolutionary Road and now that i’ve seen it in french (i saw it in the cinemas with kate en australie) i am left with the same opinion as before - that the acting is good but i don’t like the story even remotely. plus now i seem to...
last night all the family plus me and the family...
movies
i like movies. i love the way that i can find a way to imagine myself in the film or tv show as a friend or something to the characters. when i was younger and read all the tintin books i used to have dreams where i was one of the characters but now i usually watch tv or movies and fit myself into them somehow.
yes i know i’m weird
that is all for now
30 hours away from home and my father can still make me cry.
i don’t know how to deal with these things
i’ve been like this all day half trying to cry half trying not to
i wanted to cry (which is very easy to do right now) so others would see i need someone to care now
and half trying not to because i can’t stand being seen crying and years of hiding tears is not something...
my year of firsts is turning out ok so i'm going...
1. first time i’ve celebrated a birthday overseas
2. first time i’ve had a daiquiri and a cocktail and vodka flavoured beer and various other weird types of alcohol that i hadn’t had before.
3. first time i smoked cigars
4. first time i’ve set off fireworks (this was exciting for me)
5. first time i’ve slept on a boat
6. first time i saw a real gun (with a...
also, more importantly than that it is swiss day,...
now i’m in a conversation about my nail polish and i don’t quite understand why, i think i can put it all down to that french-speakers are all crazy……….although i guess that isn’t all that fair considering that i’m not all that sane either, but at least i understand myself. tonight we are going to have fireworks because it is national swiss day which i...
July 2009
12 posts
i've decided that both my twitter and tumblr are...
i was also rather sad last night i even cried a little, because noone is coming to visit me and i was supposed to be visited by parents in 24 days, i had been counting the days since 41 days until their trip and now they’ve told me they can’t come so i am sad
i feel strangely tired today and this morning at...
i realise i haven't posted in a while and that is...
i am sad because someone i like very muchly is far...
i'm sad now because i have zero tumblarity. so i'm...
remembering
lately i’ve been remembering things from my past, from my childhood. there are a few good memories i guess but the ones that stick out most prominently are the bad ones, last night i was sitting on my bed in the dark at 2am with tears leaking out my eyes because of memories and how things are now as a result.
continue this later i have to go to my french lesson now
“No government has the right to tell its citizens whom to love. The only queer...”
– Rita Mae Brown
someone else posted this on facebook and i think...
I am the boy who never finished high school, because I got called a fag everyday I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian. I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman. I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights. We are the parents who buried our daughter long...
The Wooden Bowl (this made me cry)
A frail old man went to live with his son, daughter-in-law, and four-year-old grandson. The old man’s hands trembled, his eyesight was blurred, and his step faltered The family ate together at the table. But the elderly grandfather’s shaky hands and failing sight made eating difficult. Peas rolled off his spoon onto the floor. When he grasped the glass, milk spilled on the...
June 2009
11 posts
my camera won’t work. it is important that my camera works. it doesn’t.
i turned it on yesterday and the part where i should see a picture stayed black. well i can view pics i’ve already taken on it but i can’t take any new ones. it is really rather bothersome.
today i had dinner with tante yvette again, same as last night. i have come to the conclusion that she is an...
sooooo glad
so here i was sitting in my (not so tidy) room on my computer when the front door knocks, this didn’t bother me any because i was expecting louis to come back for his usb and exercise book.
yesterday, we had a lot of fun just playing around (i’d flick his head and he’d try to hit me at which point i’d either run and lock myself in a room or block his shots and keep...
“Who discovered we can get milk from cows and what did he think he was doing at...”
– billy connolly
right now i’m talking to Louis, he is the cousin of the kids i look after. i don’t know how much i can write about him because he is learning english and i don’t know how much he will understand. so i’ll just leave it at that.
today i was eating bread with jam made from the cherries i picked a couple of days ago and it was really tasty. and just then i drank a beer with...
bad day
today i had a very bad day :(
now i’m hungry because i didn’t eat dinner as i thought i was gonna throw up.
i’ve been watching skins today i quite like it actually
so now it is 20 minutes before midnight and i’m waiting 54 minutes to watch the rest of season 3 episode 9 of dexter. such an wonderful show, i just love it.
today i went swimming because it was so hot outside, although i suppose i didn’t actually swim, it was more just roll up the pool cover and toss it over the side of the (above-ground) pool, then climb onto a floating bed and keep...
For the last few days i’ve been tossing up the idea of whether or not i want to write a blog.Today i decided i would because as i was walking to the library here in Switzerland i noticed a walking frame in the park. This made me laugh and i just felt it necessary to share this with whoever might stumble across this blog of mine.
I first thought of writing a blog on tuesday, while i was...